Take a Breath

I am doing everything in my power to have a few spending free days this week. I am being mindful of how much money I need to go to yoga class, and the horse races this weekend and groceries. Right now I feel like there is a few things a need and a million things I want. Each is gently tugging at my wallet but if you add this all up I feel like it is going to burst out of distress.

I am trying soooooo hard to look into the future, understand how this will benefit me. What is making this worse, is my feelings about myself are being projected on my friends. I am doing what I can to deal with these emotions and prevent them from causing me to emotionally spend or emotionally eat. I know this journey is not just about spending less and saving more, it is about effectively and efficiently being myself (as bizarre as that sounds).

I know I can do this! These humps happen, and I know when I persevere through this, I will be the better for it.

I have to say, I did well for the month of October, I will keep up my good work through November. Thank you for reading!